in anticipation of where i'm going, i'll soon forget where i've been.  days fade to night, the sun chases after the moon in a swirl of blue.  my eyes now overstimulated with endless blue skyscapes, and an unfailing array of blue pigment forming ocean.  it's no surprise i struggle to grasp the day of the week.  just the same, all calendar dates have been long dismissed.  so to remember how it all unfolds, i've decided to journal about days, venues, and amusing souls along the way.  otherwise, recalling events will be based sheerly on imagination; something that quiet often eludes to a fantastical post.  so far, i did not dream this, only lived it.  hold on.

Monday, August 18, 2008

fortune favors the brave...

here i sit: wresting with vocabulary, contemplating a thesaurus, with a brain garbled full of static and thoughts dangerously ricocheting and conspiring to dream.

i am healthy. i am happy. i am not hungry.
i am not broken.
i am the envy of my friends. i am my mothers daughter.
i am lost. i am brave.
i am lonely. i succeed. i believe.
i fight sleep. i doubt. i know.
fire rages in my heart. slides through my veins. my consciousness tingles. my eyes burn.
and i, am so very alive. painstakingly alive.

  welcome to 26.

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